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          Sunday, November 13, 2005
          3:41 AM

Hello, my name is Ben. About 6 months ago, I lost someone so so special to me. I grew up with this person, we went to school together, spent the night at each others house, and graduated from elementary and middle school together. He was my God-Brother and my best friend. But tragically, on May 15, 2005 he was killed in car accident.... He was 17 yrs old when he died. To this day, I think about him everyday and every moment i hear his name, but then i realize he's not there. sometimes at night when i am alone at my dorm, i just sit and look at the pics of the past...and i just burst into tears..it really hurts alot...sometimes i just cry and cry, till i go to sleep. But I have learned to ask for support from God the almighty father, the holy spirit and Jesus our Savior. I have read some of these comments, and i truly understand... I know we will never forget our loved ones EVER. This person has changed my life FOREVER, But we must be strong and seek guidance from Jesus Christ. God Bless all who have lost a loved one, may god support you and your loved ones in this moment of loss.
 


       Wednesday, November 9, 2005
        5:40 AM

My Mom died she was 71 years old I am fifty years old I lived with her most of my life she was a mother and a friend. She had not been well for last year or so. The last months she couldn't even get to the store . She was heavy smoker diabetes according to dr. her lungs sucked. Her last words to my father was I will be alright now. She went to sleep I woke from a nap and tried to wake her she was with Jesus. It has been over a month I still hurt inside its like a piece of my heart has been torn out. I have heart problems had bypass  not to long ago . They upped my meds. Doing better no more angina yet well I want to say goodnight to Mom one more time or tell her I love her one more time . I feel sad when I am sad and sad when I am not. I cried like a baby  during whole funeral stuff. I should have been more of man. God I miss my Mom. It was no more than a day after her death that I experience something awesome. I was praying. My eyes were closed. I saw streaming white angels before me. One looked at me. Then in the background I saw my mom with other people. She seen me came toward me I felt her and the love of God all at once. It was awesome and I was a little frightened yet after that I felt all was well . I know what I know and my Mom is in heaven with Jesus and all is well yet a part of me is gone forever. I get mad sometimes and want to tell everyone off , yet I know Mom would not want me to hurt them. Maybe I have gone on to much I will end this by saying i hope this site helps me deal with this loss. I should not have said the following but right after Mom passed away in front of family I said. Its all downhill from here meaning nothing could me worse than this loss in my life. I have to learn to watch what I say. I told someone about seeing my Mom and they said it was my imagination that hurt but it sure seemed real to me.
I hope what I have wrote down can help others in their time of need. God bless all who read this. Know Jesus is alive and with all we loved and lost.
 


        Friday, November 4, 2005
        6:23 PM

On November 1, 2005 - we lost our beloved dog, Maddie.  She was a long hair chihuahua and was our little baby.  Of my 6-small dogs she was the one who I was closest to.  She went EVERYWHERE with me, even on airline flights on our vacations.  We took her in for a dental cleaning and about an hour into the procedure her heart stopped.  They think it was an embolism due to the nature of how quick her heart stopped and her non-responsiveness to rececetation.  I am just beside myself.  Each day has got a little better, but the pain is still great and fresh.  She was truly loved and will be missed.   In sorrow - Tina E., Gilbert AZ
 


        Wednesday, November 2, 2005
        11:24 PM

My mother died on July 6, 2005 from the result of a hospital error.  Her death happened suddenly.  My mother and I were best friends and I miss her so much.  I feel as though I cannot function anymore.  I am so depressed, I cry non-stop, I am lost, confused and angry with myself because I was not there to help my mother in the last minutes of her life. When she died, I feel as though I died.  I am so empty.  I have no purpose in life anymore.  My mother was everything to me she was always happy and full of energy.  She helped so many people, she was committed to so much for others.  I pray that is spirit is resting peacefully.  I look forwarding to being with her.

Linda- California
 


        Wednesday, November 2, 2005
        6:14 PM

i lost my dad this past january. i started my own support group for teens who have lost loved ones for my senior project. i think this website will help a lot of people and i know it will help me. thank you.


        Wednesday, November 2, 2005
        5:05 PM


On October 25, 2005 my mother and best friend lost her 15 year battle with breast cancer. I am and will always be so proud of her courage and determination. She leaves behind a husband, three daughters, two granddaughters and countless friends whose lives she touched. Watching her fighting and losing her battle this past year has left a hole in my heart. I will love and miss my mom until the day I die. My life has changed and I will never be the same. I am dreading the holidays and pray they will come and go fast. If love could have saved her she would have lived forever.
 


        Sunday, October 30, 2005
        12:01 AM

Hello...I currently work for Mission Hospice in South Pasadena, California. I will be starting a wonderful new journey in my hospice experience as well as my life experience. Soon I will be the Bereavement Coordinator/Counselor for Mission Hospice. It was good to find your website. Thanks for the inspiration I received.  I wonder if you would be so kind as to share with me a job description for a Bereavement Coordinator or Counselor.
Peace to you!
The Rev. Kenneth O. Garcia, M.Div.
 


        Saturday, October 29, 2005
        6:49 AM

My mother passed away five months ago. I have been very busy this year, with daughter's marriage, trying to move, planning to re-marry, and traveling for work. It has been hard to slow down to feel this. My mother was not an easy person for me to be with, but at the end of her life, I enjoyed her a lot. I am feeling the whole life, and the contribution she made to me, and the absence and emptiness without her.
 


       Friday, October 28, 2005
       4:26 PM

hello, my name is Lina, and I lost my 16 yr old daughter Kelsey Nicole Hanson, on March 30 in a car accident on her way to school. It seems that people and everything and everyone around you think you are getting better after this time has gone by. But there are days it is worse. Her older sister Jamie just started college in Sept and there are no words of comfort for how much she misses her sister. The days go by. We are all doing ok. But There's a certain amount of life and joy that we have lost. I and my husband have gotten grief counseling. I was on an anti depressant for a short time. It somewhat helped but also helped me gain 25 1bs. So I discontinued that. There is no answer to the why. I have memories that pour out of me, with an edge of finality to them, cuz I know there will be no new memories of Kelsey. She will always be 16 yrs. And when I'm 80 yrs old I will remember her yet and the loss of her just getting to the beginning of life. Not many understand this, except if it's someone that's gone thru it. It's a void so big, it leaves a an empty gorge inside. There is no comfort, no words for the loss of my girl. Again the days go by. I have one child now. I may never have grandchildren. Why was I allowed to have 2 and one taken away. Why couldn't I have been blessed with more and not feel so cheated. Why Kelsey. Back to the unanswered why.
Any words of comfort that mean something would be appreciated.  Lina     
 


        Wednesday, October 26, 2005
        07:18 AM

My boyfriend Andrew died on October 10th. He was only 26 years old.  He was the one. I feel like my entire future has been ripped away. How can I ever be happy without this person who fit with me so well? Moving on seems like the cruelest thing that time or anyone else can ask/force me to do. I'm trying to focus not on his act of dying, but on how he lived and all the wonderful things about him... but he still walk through the door as much as I feel he still will.



Thursday, October 06, 2005
        10:26 AM

I had a friend of mine Craig B..well not exactly friend but we had our laughs. Unfortunately I had only knew him for a about 5 months in grd.8. Now were in the same highschool in grd.10. Today is a really depressing day for our school and especially to those who were really close to Craig because just last night he died of a heart condition. I cried just thinking that nothing like that would be expected and that i worried for my mom because she also has heart problem. At this moment I really just want to go home.
 


        Wednesday, October 05, 2005
        01:15 PM

In the last seven months i have had three major losses in my life; first my husband leaving, my paternal grandmother past away and the most horrific lose was my father's murder a week after father's day.  So everyday i pray, i surrender, I grow and learn about myself and work on healing.
 


        Tuesday, September 27, 2005
        04:09 PM

I lost my son Michael E. Davis, Jr. on 9/14/05. He was 18 years.  He was beautiful and his light was put out by an unknown gunman.  He leaves to mourn two sisters (one older, one younger), his step-father, aunts and uncles, cousins, and my wonderful parents.  We have never had to face tragedy.  I was so pleased to find this website and plan to visit it often.  I am looking anywhere, everywhere to find someone who has been through something similar.  Thank you for the opportunity to share my feelings and receive feedback.  I need to know that I am not going to lose my mind in the days and weeks to come. I know I will never get over the loss, I am just trying to get to functional.
     Sherri Dameron
 


        Tuesday, September 27, 2005
        12:37 PM

I lost my husband of 3 years on April 4, 2004.  He was only 47 yrs. old.  He had an asthma attack and died immediately.  I miss him terribly, I cannot move on.  People say that I am young (43) and that I can  marry again, I don't want to!  The love my husband and I had, I could NEVER experience with anyone else.  I'm happy this web site was suggested to me.  I need comforting.
 


        Monday, September 19, 2005
        07:06 PM

I lost my dear sweet husband Ronnie Coker on July 31 2005.  The Dr. had just given him 6 months the week before but he did not know how far the cancer had spread.  I miss him so very much and even though I dont cry everyday like I did at first, my heart is so empty and the pain is so gut wrenching at times I think that I just might die my self.  But I know in my head that I must go on because thats the way that God has intended for life to be.  I know that I have a lot of things to live for like my children, grandkids, friends, my church and my loving family and friends.  It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my almost 50 yrs of living.  You see Ronnie died just 3 days before his 51st birthday and missed our 3rd anniversary by 23 days.  I am so thankful to God for allowing me the privilege of loving and caring for this wonderful man even though it was just for a short time.  He was the love of my life and I know I will NEVER be the same, but I know I will be a better person for knowing Ronnie E. Coker.
Thank you for this website I will be visiting often in the next few months.  Thanks for just letting me get some of this out I know it will help me in the long run. 

Proud to be Mrs. Ronnie E. Coker
(Jacquie Coker)
 


        Monday, September 19, 2005
        09:30 AM

Thank you very much for providing such a wonderful website!  Please take a look at ours when you have a chance.  We love animals as well and are devoted breeders of True Old World Chameleons.  We can be found at http://www.chameleonsonly.com

Sincerely,
Liddy & Ed Kammer
Kammerflage Kreations
 


        Saturday, September 17, 2005
        08:26 PM

Thank you for making this site available for those of us who've lost a beloved pet!  I pray that the world is learning to honor and respect animals.  Perhaps the Louisiana disaster helped to make us all aware of the need to care even more for our companion pets. 

I grieve the loss of my 11 y.o. pet cat, "Jupiter", more than words can say yet I am grateful for the time we had together.  If he will be reborn, I know he will be free of the disease that took him and have (another) happy life, until we meet again.

Gene J.
Tucson, AZ
 


        Friday, September 16, 2005
        10:25 AM

im 16 years old 17 in 2 months and i just lost my father about 3 weeks ago.. my dad and i got VERY close about 3 months before his death.. he and i were the only ones home and i was the one who had to call 911 when he had a heart attack.. i knew my dad wasnt gonna be ok and im filled with SO much anger and hatred i dont know what to do with it.. i love and miss my dad so much its not even funny

-rest in peace daddy i love you 8.25.05-
please email me i need some help BlueEyedBaby@inmail24.com
 


        Sunday, September 11, 2005
        11:05 PM

My mom passed away Saturday September 10th shortly before 3 PM. She had terminal breast cancer that had spread to her liver. We knew that she was terminal for just over 5 months. She has battled cancer for 6 years.
I am unable to write much (35 hrs. later), but I am devastated. I'm 46 a bachelor and the third of three children. Mom passed away in her own bed surrounded by her children as she had wanted. She was 78.

My world is upside down. The last week of her life was hard on her and all of us. I know my brother and sisters are worried about me because I have been so grief stricken (as are they!). I wish I could be stronger. Of the four kids I was always the most like my mom--we were so much alike. My siblings have held me up and I know that it has been a very short time, but the pain is almost beyond what I can bear. I will keep in touch, but I would be grateful for any advice, sentiments or just to know that now that mom's gone (although I know she will be with me always) I am not alone--I FEEL very alone and I feel confused and scared. My Siblings are very loving and supportive, but I feel that I have let them down because I have not been very much use the past day and a half.
I love you forever mom--you will always be with me.
-Tim Alger
New Jersey
 


        Sunday, September 11, 2005
        04:08 PM

Thank you for your site. Very comforting.  My church is having a "Blessing of the Animals" service Oct 16th.  We aren't a Catholic church but want to honor the animals and the relationships that they share with us. I have the job of mentioning the grieving process in the service because I lost my dog Mike a few months ago and wanted to address this piece, so I will be sharing your web site to those who would like it. Thanks again .
Beth in New York.


        Monday, August 29, 2005
        03:21 PM

I lost my mom 8 months ago she died in her sleep and I never got to say good-bye to her. I was at boarding school when my mom died. It was a sunday I was at the laundry mat it was a regular sunday until I got back to campus. My bag was packed for me I hate having my stuff touched anyway that day was the day my life changed forever.


        Saturday, August 27, 2005
        05:36 PM


IN THE LOVING MEMORY OF WILLIAM ERNEST STARKEY WHO HAS PASSED AWAY AUGUST 25, 2005.  HE WAS A LOVING AND CARING FATHER, HUSBAND, GRANDFATHER, UNCLE AND FRIEND TO ALL.  HE WILL BE GREATLY MISSED.
 


         Tuesday, August 23, 2005
         10:19 PM

I lost my mother on Feb.17th 2005.  She was 90 years young.  She was not ill. She got pneumonia on Sunday and gone on Thursday.  I'm an only child and her care was always given by me.  I'm lost without her
 


        Tuesday, August 23, 2005
        05:58 AM

I've lost my husband of 30+ years and then 7 months later, lost our dog of 8 yrs, who was my grief buddy... where do you go from there? I like your website, It has given me a different outlook.


        Monday, August 22, 2005
        12:08 AM

I recently lost my Father-in-Law a couple of months ago. He was 79 yrs old. It was to be expected. But I lost my mother a few years ago at the age of 56, It was very traumatic for me and my  family, I am the oldest of my brothers and sisters, and I had to be the strong one for sisters and brothers, I can't help, but miss her so much. Then 2 yrs ago I lost my mother-in-law due to to a aorta aneurysm that ruptured, 2 months later I lost my Sister-in-law to breast cancer of the age 53. Then there was aunts, uncles on my Husbands side who I didn't know that well, they were from Canada that passed away. Then Last year I lost my beloved Grandmother, I lived with her till I got married. She was very dear to me. I happened to be her favorite granddaughter, I miss her so much. Sometime I wonder if she is still with me in some way. She was a lot like a mother to me. Then  my sister's Husband died at the age of 50, that same year. Then a few months later my baby brother died at the age of 39. Two weeks before his 40th birthday. My brother was a quadraplegic, paralyzed from the chest down. He had a motor cycle accident at the age of 19, and broke his neck. He live that way for 18 yrs in a wheel chair, but he had a good life, he got married and had 2 adopted kids, and several foster kids. He was blessed with a wonderful wife who loved him very much. and she is still mourning him even now. I miss him so much that it hurts. I wish I knew how to deal with these deaths that have occurred in the last few years. My Grandfather died in 1998 3 months before my Mother did in 1999, We've had 12 deaths in both sides of my our families. How am I suppose to deal with this? It seems like my family is dwindling right before my very eyes. I am 45 yrs old, and people keep telling me there will be more. I feel that it so crass, I have a family of my own a Husband of 22 1/2 yrs and 2 grown kids with lives of their own. I feel like a lost soul and I feel very lonely. I'm in search of God lately but I can't seem to find him, please pray for me and my family. Thank you.   paula
 


        Thursday, August 11, 2005
        05:14 AM

I hope this site works. I feel I am only going through the motions and feel completely lost in the world even though I'm older.
 


        Tuesday, August 02, 2005
        11:50 AM

Hi my name is tina i am looking at the site to see if i can find some inspirational thoughts that i can share with my husband his mother died over 15 years ago on sept 4th her birthday is aug 2nd.
 


        Monday, August 01, 2005
        07:39 PM

I lost my mother July 27, 2001, and regardless of what people say, it doesn't get easier. She was my life, my best friend. I am lost. Right now, I am simply existing. Yes, I go to work, take care of my cats. But each day I just wait to see what God has in store for my life now that I'm alone.    Ivy
 


        Monday, August 01, 2005
        02:43 PM

IN LOVING MEMORY OF GWEN STARKEY, AN ANGEL ABOVE ALL SHE PASSED AWAY ON APRIL 18, 2005.  A LOVING AND CARING WIFE, MOTHER, GRANDMOTHER, AUNT, NEIGHBOR, AND FRIEND SHE IS MISSED GREATLY.
 


        Monday, August 01, 2005
        08:44 AM

I am grieving today over the unnecessary death of my beloved dog Sassy, a 14 lb. bundle of joy that I loved with all of my heart. I live in McDonough, Georgia and yesterday Sassy was seriously injured when she was struck by a speeding ATV on our street. I rushed her to a local animal emergency clinic and they determined that she had sustained a broken pelvic bone (in 2 places) and also had a abdominal problem. These injuries would require surgery and the vet on duty told me that her prognosis after the surgeries would be good for a full recovery. She recommended that I take her to my vet on Monday (today) to arrange for the surgery. During my consultation with the emergency clinic they informed me that I would have a total billing charge of over $1000.00 (for their care alone) for Sassy for the night until I could get her to our vet the following day. They told me that I would have to pay them a deposit of $833.00 on the spot for them to continue to treat Sassy through the night. I explained to them that I was unemployed but would do everything within my power to get them the money if they would only care for my baby long enough for me to get her to surgery. I pleaded for their help and I pleaded for her life but they had no interest in helping this sweet little yorkie. They only wanted their money. They told me that if I could not pay I would have to take her home and that she would more than likely not live through the night. They said my only other option was to have her put to death. They had me over a barrel. I could not let her suffer through the night and I had no other choice except to loose my beloved pet. How can people who claim to love animals be so heartless, cruel and insensitive and let a poor little dog suffer? I understand that the emergency clinics are in business to make a profit, but can't their be times that the profits could be put aside to save a life. Are there any places available to families (who have no money) to take their sick and injured pets? If not we very much need to do something about this. I need input!!!
If you live in the Fayetteville, Georgia area BEWARE of your local emergency animal clinic, if your beloved family pet is sick or injured and you cannot afford to pay they are of no use to you or your community. We need a foundation to be set up to help these families and people with pets in need! Let's start here........any suggestions or donations to help this worthwhile cause will be greatly appreciated and used wisely. Please write or contact me at the address or phone number listed below.

          IN LOVING MEMORY OF SASSY ZELLA
             MARCH 4,1996 - JULY 31,2005

K. Raymond Zella
395 Highland Drive
McDonough, Georgia 30253
Phone - (770) 827-3778
 


        Saturday, July 23, 2005
        04:56 PM

I am not sure how to get on with my life and be happy again.  I have been divorced for five years due to adulterous behavior by my husband.  I have lost my 17 year old daughter in a car accident.  My oldest son and his wife are trying to dictate my life and are using my granddaughter as a pawn if I don't conform to their suggestions.  How am I to get on with my life and be happy again?
 


        Thursday, July 21, 2005
        06:38 AM

this message is for the last person who wrote their message about their son ryan ,, i lost my sons last year ages 23 and 22 in the space of two weeks .. life is hard .. life goes on it will never be the same again .. its harder when its their birthdays and other anniversaries come up .. its been just over a year now for me and im not going to say it gets easier .. in fact it gets harder .. some days are good ... some days are bad .. but just think .. your son will be giving u the strength to carry on as i feel mine are .. and that u will one day meet again in a better place .. may god bless u and be with u always xoxoxox
 


        Wednesday, July 20, 2005
        11:20 AM

I lost my beloved son Ryan age 22. On March 16, 2005.  His birthday is July 22.  My heart is so broken. My insides are so empty. I ask God everyday to teach how to live without Ryan.  I find it a daily struggle to go on.  I survive now, I no longer live. 
 


        Sunday, July 17, 2005
        02:35 PM

This message is for Don Brady. I'm so sorry . I don't have an answer for you, for I feel the same way as you do. My husband Dan died 07/21/04, he was 56 years old. We had been together for 39 years. I have no family left and no children. If you can find a grief counseling group or I think counseling, one on one would be more help for you. I have decided to call my  grief counselor for just that, tomorrow. Don, I don't believe the emptiness will ever end, it appears you loved your Pearlie as I loved and will always love my Dan. We must somehow adjust, to live again, for them as well as for our selves. How, I don't know, but we have to try.  My best wishes and comfort to you, Ellen
 


        Sunday, July 17, 2005
        12:57 PM

hi was just looking at your site and would like to add i lost my two sons last year in the space of two weeks and yes i do have some horrendous days and other days i tell myself i have to move on .. which isnt easy .. but life does go on and the pain is excruciating sometimes but the one thing that keeps me going is that i know its only a temporary separation ... i will see them again one day :)
 


        Saturday, July 16, 2005
        08:34 PM

I have recently lost my 8 year old dog and we are devastated.
 


        Friday, July 08, 2005
        06:29 AM

I can't "speak" right now but wanted to add my name as I am loved by many companion animals in our home and have lost Flora (Newf.), Lily (dwarf dutch bunny) and Nigel (SAS Newf.) in just 6 weeks... the pain is difficult to deal with.   My heart goes out to all others grieving as my husband and I are ... my two other Newfs. are old and really slowing up. 
 


        Thursday, July 07, 2005
        12:06 PM

I recently lost my dear dog, Rizzo. Your site has offered me comfort I haven't been able to find elsewhere. Thank you, and blessings to all who have loved and lost~
Tracey
 


         Monday, June 27, 2005
        12:13 PM

Please Pray for Brando and Sammy and Lady
 


          Sunday, June 19, 2005
          07:25 AM

Excellent site. Great job!
 


        Saturday, June 18, 2005
        05:29 AM

Hi I just lost my husband Roger, and have been devastated, as he was the last of my friends, and one  who understood me and my suffering (I am disabled due to severe pain). He was so good in heart and so helpful in many areas, beyond all that I loved him deeply.
 


        Wednesday, June 15, 2005
        09:17 PM

My best friend lost her mother last October, due to a massive heart attack.  She left behind two children and many who love her. She was only 35, and was like a mother to me.
       


        Wednesday, June 15, 2005
        09:36 AM

Hi. I lost my precious wife, Pearly 5 years ago this coming July 7. I am still grieving her loss. Is it normal to grief this long for someone who has gone on to Heaven? Will this ever end?
Don Brady
 


            Monday, June 13, 2005
            06:29 AM

My Nan died on 30/05/05 the day before my birthday, she had been in pain for many months, struggling with Lung Cancer she threw me a 16th birthday a couple of days before she died as she knew she wouldn't see it and she bought me a lovely ring, the next day of the party that was the last time I saw her alive.  A week after she had died I plucked up the courage to go and see her in the funeral home Chittendans, when I saw her lying there I felt empty but I was glad she wasn't in pain anymore.  Knowing that she loved me and that she isn't suffering any longer makes me feel a lot better but I still wish she was here with me.  I hope this will stop people smoking because not only does it ruin your life but it ruins your loved ones too.  I just hope that she is looking down at me and that i made her proud by saying something at her funeral. God Bless.           Nan xxxxx
 


            Sunday, May 22, 2005
            09:34 PM


My 17 year old brother was killed in an auto accident and my grandma was killed one month exactly after that also in an auto accident.  It has been almost two years and I feel like I am not getting any "better".  Some days I am okay but some days it feels like the day it happened.  I feel no joy in anything anymore.  Will I ever?  I feel like people expect me to be okay but what does that mean?  My head knows what I need to do but my heart will not listen.  They were both so young and it just is not fair.  I am soooo angry.  I am so sad.  I miss them so much.  Sometimes I wish I could have died with them.  I know I have to go on for the rest of my family but all I can think about is what I have lost.  I cannot let them go. I think I still pretend that they are coming back so that I can just function through the day.  Will this ever get any better?  My uncle just had a terrible car accident just like my grandma, but thank God he is alive.  His body is pretty broken and he is in critical condition but he is breathing.  I don't think my mom or the rest of my family could handle another loss.  I am just praying that God and maybe my grandma and my bubba will pull him through this.  You are all in my prayers.  God Bless


            Sunday, May 22, 2005
             02:47 PM


I never thought that i would feel to so much pain losing my grandad, i lost him a couple of months ago and i miss him so much i wish he was here for me when life going hard and for him to help me though the bad times in life. grandad i love u so much and always will,  i was sat at his bedside and watched him slip a way and it was the  most hardest thing ive ever had to do. ive never had to let someone spilt out of my life and when my gradad did i couldnt sleep or stop achin with pain. nan night grandad and take care xxxxxxx


        Saturday, May 21, 2005
        01:46 AM


Thank you so much. I have been looking for a place to come and chat or email someone to talk to. Last month I lost my oldest daughter Angelica to a brain Aneurysm she was just 18 years old.  I miss her dearly the is a hole that can never be filled in my heart.  I want to see her and touch again I know she lives in my heart and now she's with God I miss her so. This May 16th we excepted her diploma from her High School at what would have been her Graduation and it was as they say bitter sweet she'd made it I knew she would.  All my love to  you my Angelic Angel Angelica Brown Kisses and Hugs


           Monday, May 16, 2005
           04:39 PM

Thank you so much for the site.  I was comforted by the poems and messages in this board.


 

           Sunday, May 15, 2005
           09:12 AM

I never thought I would have such a difficult time letting go of a loved one. I have suffered the death of family and friends before, but I was there holding him and loving him when he died and I couldn't stop it or make it better. Part of me died with him.


Saturday, May 14, 2005
08:13 PM

You will be truly blessed for creating this site! You are reaching out to so many people that need you!


 
Saturday, May 07, 2005
08:19 PM

My mother has cancer and although I know where she will be when she passes I miss her already. Its very difficult to see parents get older and become ill. There are times when we have no answers for loss. God does care and I rely on Him


Friday, May 06, 2005
01:53 PM

Thank you for making this site! I lost my best friend to leukemia 4 months ago but im really still hurting, and to read what other people have wrote it has really helped. i know that as time goes by i will heal but i will never forget and that is one of the most important things to me. thank you Michelle P.s cherish every moment you have with someone you love because you never know when its to late E-mail me- Littletush@btinternet.com


Monday, May 02, 2005
03:34 PM

Hi, my name is Natalie, and my father died last week. I am 16 years old and VERY tired of hugs. I'm tired of people asking my how I am, I'm tired of people telling me to be strong, and I'm tired of non-edible "comfort food". I know that's perfectly normal for me to feel this way, but it still makes everyday life hard. I feel very bitter, and very hurt over the loss of my best friend, and father. I am a Christian, so I have God to back me up. I am not angry at God, but I am angry that He's not revealing His purpose. If anybody could offer advice, I would love to talk. nepeck@earthlink.net Thank you, Natalie


Monday, May 02, 2005
01:58 AM

Thank you for your site. I do not really know what to say here, but thank you from the heart. I lost my 3yrs. and 5 mth old son Daniel to meningitis on April 1, 2005, and although I have a daughter - Isabella - who is just 2 mths old I cannot get over the loss of Daniel. The pain and grief is unbearable. Daniel 'is' my best friend and i cannot, till now, accept that he has gone. He was my confidante. We were so close like soul mates; during my pregnancy when i was really sick in my second and third month Daniel would hold my hand, caress my face and hair and say "Don't worry mama, I'm here, I'll take care of you, 'cos daddy's at work. My son never wanted to leave me alone. His teacher at the nursery told me that Daniel was nver naughty. Can u believe that! But she told me that she didn't say this to make me feel good, but it's the truth, Daniel was very special; he was so mature for his age. This world can be so cruel. Now Danny Panny's gone and we are left to pick up the pieces of our lives and try our best to carry on. How difficult that is. I question the meaning of "Life" and why we exist in this world. PLEASE HELP US! Thank you - Michelle - Dubai UAE


Sunday, May 01, 2005
04:10 PM

Thank you for this website.


Monday, April 25, 2005
08:12 AM

About an hour ago I had my sweet 14 year old cat put to sleep, she had cancer. Today my heart is breaking, I am crying and I feel like this feeling will never end, but I know in my heart as time passes it will get better. Today she is in heaven free and pain free, my father is taking care of her until the day I myself go to care for her again.


Sunday, April 24, 2005
08:01 PM

My mommy died on March 24, 05 at age 33. -sigh- I miss her sooo much. I don't know what else to type..starting to cry again. - Pup <3


Wednesday, April 20, 2005
06:09 PM

Please check this out! www.lovinghuntingdogs.com We are sorry about all the losses!!! Our feelings are for you!!


Wednesday, April 20, 2005
03:25 PM

I am 16 years old and i loss my favorite aunt on September 12th, 1995, she was beaten to death and thrown over in my grandma backyard. i was only 6 at the time and i really didn't understand what was going on, but now i think about it especially when i have to do reports on death or grief. i have to present a speech to my class on how to deal with grief but it is hard because i am still dealing with it myself, i hope i can make it through my speech without crying.


Tuesday, April 19, 2005
08:04 PM

I had no idea what this site is about. But I was reading and I can't believe some of the stories that I am reading. I just emailed Brianna, one of the 13 year old girls that goes to this site. My grandpa just passed away of cancer and I didnt cry. Is that a bad thing? Now everytime I go to sleep, I feel him in my room. I get scared. I am 13 and lives in Alaska. If anyone wants to email me, I would be happy to talk. chaffin24@hotmail.com


Tuesday, April 19, 2005
05:25 AM

Many thanks for a great site. It helped. Ralph ralph.lundgren@hotmail.com


Friday, April 15, 2005
05:35 AM

Hi, this is Linda again. I would like to tell all those out there to make sure you cherish every moment you have with your mother. You never know when she will go. My mother Jeannette was always there for me and for my dad and my brother. She was only 52 when she passed away on thursday, April 7, 2005. She went for a surgery to make her healthier and start a brand new life that she and my father would be able to enjoy. Unfortunately, God had his own plans. Im glad I was always close to my parents and that I dont have any regrets. So please to all out there, treat your moms with respect and always love them and cherish them, cause you never know when they will leave this world, and then it's too late. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM, AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH. DAD REALLY MISSES YOU TOO, AND DONT WORRY MOM, I WILL TAKE CARE OF HIM. KAYLA AND PHILLIP MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU TOO. LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER, YOUR DAUGHTER LINDA.


Wednesday, April 13, 2005
03:20 PM

On Thursday, April 7, 2005, my mother, Jeannette passed away at the early age of 52. She was my best friend and I miss her dearly. This sight is just so beautiful and soothing. Thank you Linda Ontario, Canada


Wednesday, April 13, 2005
02:48 PM

What a beatiful site with LOTS of resources. Thank you. Carna www.missingmother.com


Tuesday, April 12, 2005
02:31 PM

ON MONDAY APRIL 11,2005 MY BELOVED MIDNIGHT PASSED AWAY IN MY ARMS. HE FOUGHT AS HARD AS HE COULD TO STAY, BUT COULDN'T. MY HEART IS TORN IN TWO. I STILL HAVE HIS MOM AND POP. HOW COULD GOD TAKE HIM AFTER ONLY 8 YEARS. LIFE JUST IS NOT FAIR.


Saturday, April 09, 2005
10:01 AM

Our beautiful little boy Tico Died on Friday 8th April 2005 at 7.15pm.He was the friendliest moggy I ever met.We love him so much and shall never forget him.I feel like a massive part of me has been ripped away.Tico was nearly 12. R.I.P. Tico


 
 
Monday, April 04, 2005
04:40 AM

My beloved Winslow ("Winnie") had to be put down on Saturday morning at age 17 1/2 years. His sister Lilly is still with us, but our hearts are forever broken. There is a hole in me the size of Alaska.

 


Wednesday, March 23, 2005
01:10 PM

This is for Pedro J. Ramos and Alexander Hamilton. You guys will be greatly missed and always loved......


 
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
01:08 PM

I just lost a friend who I have known about five years. It hurt, because it was sudden. But, now I think about the time we could have spent that we didn't spend, but should have spent. What is worse is that about 15 months ago I lost another friend in the identical manner. Guys, you will always be remembered!!!!


 
 
Friday, March 11, 2005
03:49 AM

My best friend had an asthma attack last may, went into a coma and died, she was 23. I'm going to see her parents tomorrow for the first time since the funeral and I'm nervous as hell. I am so scared I will cry and scream in front of them but their pain is much worse than mine. I miss her so badly and no one seems to understand that I cant just wake up one day and be happy again it helps to know others feel the same


Tuesday, March 08, 2005
11:33 AM

Just found your site. not in a great place at the moment. Lost the pregnancy of my daughter Rose 5 months ago and now lost a old friend 3 weeks ago having watched him suffer for some time. my pain seems over whelming at times. Thank you for your site. Maybe i am not going crazy at all.


Tuesday, March 08, 2005
05:01 AM

Well I'm not sure if this falls under a loss but to me and my children... we lost our family .... and to what alcohol.... My wife for over 6 years has place her need for the drink over me and the children.... Over the last year she has had an affair with the local town drunk.... She went as far as to make totally false accusations causing the Family Court to is an Order of Protection which has since been dismissed.... The children and I have lost our home, our family dog... A month after I was forced out of my home because of the Order of Protection My wife abandoned the home and moved her and the children into her boyfriends home..... My 14 year old has repeatedly told the Law Guardian that he wants to live with me, yet he has been ignored... I am and always was a devoted father and husband....I have all kinds of fact finding documents to prove my claim... yet it is ignored.... My wife has on many occasions endanger the children by drinking and driving.... My 14 year old has told the Law Guardian that he has witness his mom drinking on many occasions yet that has been ignored... There is just so much to this story .... I have tried to find help.... The Courts are so bios... I was and still am the responsible parent.... My wife drinks 4 to 5 days a week and shows up in Court sober... I question the knowledge of the Court system when it concerns alcoholism.... My family has lost so much in just a year..... My children have been ripped apart from a once loving family unit... why because of alcohol.... why because my wife is in denial.... why because she has now surrounded herself and the children around a bunch of alcoholics..... I have gone to Court 22 in less than a year trying to state my case... I have called my state representatives... I have called Human Rights.... CPS..... I have even written to Dr. Phil.... and I being told that there is nothing I could do but let the Court take care of it. I now know the power of the alcohol.... I have seen first hand its destruction... me and the children are casualties.... The Court has not lived in our world... The Judge has not lost his home... his children are not placed in danger or neglected by the alcoholic.... I can not blame my wife she has a disease.... she just reacts to he problem... I find the system guilty... They have ignored the facts and only look at my wife as a mother... Problem was and still is she stop being a mother because she became an alcoholic.... She start putting the drinking before the family, the children and all the Court has done is allow that to continue. If anyone knows where I can turn for legal help, anything any avenue... I can not give up on my children and truthfully I do not want to give up on my wife. Jgarofalj@hotmail.com


Saturday, March 05, 2005
01:15 PM

My mother has advanced pancreatic cancer. The doctors are saying it doesn't look good, and that she may not last the year. I hope they are wrong, I am very sad. She is very angry and refusing to get out of bed. They said her only chance is to do chemotherapy, but they want her to get stronger in rehab, but she refuses to get out of bed. I am trying to prepare myself for her death. By praying and going to therapy, and surrounding myself with a loving support network. These are trully the best ways to deal with your grief.


Friday, March 04, 2005
07:45 AM

I found this website a year ago looking for pictures of dachshunds, i had lost my beloved Gretchen. my Boston Terrier, Sadie, was attacking her and I had to get rid of her. Almost a year later my Sadie passed and I remembered your wonderful site. I want to thank you for all you have done to help heal my broken heart and help me love again. Amanda Knotts


Wednesday March 02, 2005
05:26 AM

all of my family died on an air plane


 


10 Oct 2004

 
08:55:53

what a lovely website and poem


 
08 Oct 2004
 
18:17:49

My youngest sister died on October lst. I was her caregiver for 6 years and I have the most empty feeling in my heart. I held her hand when she came home from the hospital as a newborn, and I was holding it still as she began her journey free from pain. Thank you for a place to say this. Paula


 
07 Oct 2004
 
15:01:40

THANK YOU! This is a great resource and needless ta say, greatly needed!! Blessings, Jerry (from OH)


 
06 Oct 2004
 
08:03:21

Thank you for this wonderful site. I lost my grandpa 6 years ago and I still cannot get over it.


 
21 Sep 2004
 
12:16:26

My sister died 7/31/04 in a car accident. She was only 26 and left behind two beautiful children 1 and 4, a wonderful husband, another sister who went ahead with her wedding two weeks later (even though her matron of honor was no longer) our brother and our mom. She was my best friend... I talked to her sometimes several times a week and now don't have that. We had lost our dad three years ago. My Heart Will Go On was played at her funeral because Titanic was her favorite movie of all time. Our family is still reeling from the shock. I know we'll see her again, but our pain is so great. She was such a bright light in our lives.


 
20 Sep 2004
 
11:33:13

Our 13-year old Hootie, scottie terrier was diagnosed with liver disease (cirrhosis) in February 2004. This Sunday, he seemed fine, took his medicine with a bright and eager look that we hadn't seen in quite some time from him. I was afraid that this behavior was the calm before the storm and I was right. He went outside through his doggie door around 11:00 PM and apparently and peacefully laid down on the warm concrete by the pool, under the stars and peacefully went to sleep, taking his last breath. My husband found him when he awoke from his chair in front of the television. He called for him to come in, but he didn't move. The house is lonely, he's not by my chair, he isn't looking up at me from his bed when I come downstairs each morning. We are grieving his loss and feel that he did this his way, with dignity. Hootie didn't want me to see him die and I am glad that I did not have to take him in for euthanasia. I have been so focused caring for his skin lesions, bathing him, cleaning his eye drainage, applying ointment to the sore and cracking skin on his nose, sore feet, etc. How he loved us and how we loved him too. Thank-you God for giving us our Hootie and allowing us to be here and share his dignified passing. There will never be another Hootie, how special his memories. Please lift this heaviness from my heart and let me feel the joy that Hootie no longer needs to suffer.


 
15 Sep 2004
 
14:57:48

Dana Berube I want to thank you for this forum. Sharing in loss validates it as well as knowing that we are not alone.


 
14 Sep 2004
 
09:27:21

Marty, I visited this website the first thing this morning. I am touched beyond words. What a beautiful job you have done. I will continue to visit it often and refer others to it. Barbara Williams


 
11 Sep 2004
 
13:21:23

My 18 year old son died without any warning on the 13/2/04. I do not have the words to describe the loss and the pain.There is no sleep,no peace. I know James would not want his death to destroy our lives and if he could see the way we are it would break his heart.At the moment we "live" for Jim but oneday we will start to live for ourselves and carry him with us in our hearts.


 
10 Sep 2004
 
06:59:27

I accidentally wandered into this web page, it sure serve as a source of venue for me to grief and to grow and learn more after the demised of my beloved hubby to cancer! Got lots of inspirational strength! Opening up one's heart is not an easy task, guess we've to take the first step! I'm taking mine now!


 
03 Sep 2004
 
03:31:22

GOOD AND EDUCATIONAL, AWESOME AND INFORMATIVE WEBSITE, WAOOO, FANTASTIC. MGBADA@IMO.COM


 
27 Aug 2004
 
21:16:21

Believe me, no matter what anyone says you never get over the pain of someone whom you have loved unconditionally. I live a normal life after losing my precious father 12 years ago but if I just allow myself to think that tiny bit more about losing him the pain is as keen as the day I held him as he passed. You can put it to one side but given a moment to yourself and it all kicks in as severe as the moment it happened. And I don't mind that at all because how on earth can you ever lose a pain that is the deepest pain you can ever suffer than to lose someone more precious than yourself. Don't ever forget those you lose - live on in them and never be afraid to hurt when you remember their passing because everyone has someone or more than someone who they find life near on impossible to live without and there's no shame in that. We have all loved and to hurt forever is an extension of that love. Don't get over it if you don't want to - I never ever will. Love you more each minute, Dad xxxx


 
27 Aug 2004
 
07:37:22

It's been six months since I lost my mom..still empty inside..miss her terribly. Still have the urge to call her at 3 p.m. every afternoon. She was a wonderful mom and we were the best of friends. I tried to do everything possible for her...listened to waht the doctors thought would be better for her and you believe everything they say to you because you want to ease your loved ones suffering..I wonder When they put my mom on a respirator we believed it would only be for a short time.....I never got to hear my mom say I love you again...I went to see her almost every day...caressed her face, held her hand, told her I loved her..said the rosary for her, and yet it was not enough..not for my mom...if only I could touch her face, her hands, tell her I love her..hold her in my arms and tell her I need her by my side..if only


 
25 Aug 2004
 
12:40:29

hi my dad pass away 2yrs ago and i dont now how to get over it


 
25 Aug 2004
 
03:57:29

Good site!!


 
23 Aug 2004
 
12:17:39

My families dog of 10 years as just died. We are devestated. Your website as give us some light at the end of the tunnel, Thankyou Rest in Peace Lady Jane. The Heard family


 
20 Aug 2004
 
18:53:21

my 8 wk old pekingese puppy, has suddenly got this blue film over his right eye, I'm seeking any information before going to the vet. please help Thanks Mickey


 
17 Aug 2004
 
14:58:11

Thank you so much for this website. It was kind of an unexplainable feeling when I first somehow got to your site. See, I lost mu mom 6 years ago and the song "My heart will go on" was the song played at my dear mothers funeral. I am having a very hard time dealing with her death and to this day it effects every part of my life. My husband never met her, nor has he ever lost a parent so he gives me no support. There are times when I just wish I could leave and be with her but I knowm its not possible until God calls me home If anyone out there can help me deal with this deep pain and loss, please email me at Uniqie100@aol.com My Name is Rose and I am a 41 year old female. May God be with all of you. Again, thnak you for this site,you will never know how much it means it means to me.


 
13 Aug 2004
 
10:55:27

My dear friend, I find your site very nice, continue the good work. from http://www.shesinrecovery.com


 
03 Aug 2004
 
20:25:36

I had my 15 year old cat, my friend, my Rose euthanized yesterday August 2, 2004. Did I do the right thing? I hope so. I think so. The pain I feel inside, tinged with guilt, is deep and hard. I could go on for hours telling you how special she was. But we know there are no ordinary cats. I will miss her forever.


 
03 Aug 2004
 
18:47:33

My dear little friend, a mouse named Sassy, just passed away on the blue moon. She felt suffering on that day because she wasn't moving around too much. She was already two years old, which is old for a mouse; she was being treated with antibiotics for respiratory infection. I went out for a few hours, came back and she was gone. I loved her very much! I know she is happy now and with her mouse friends and angels. ~Ellen


 
30 Jul 2004
 
13:22:24

I just lost my 23 year old Siamese cat. Pepper was my best friend and always at my side. She was with me through a lot of changes in my life. She left 06.05.04. I stayed up with her that night before and was holding her when she left. I can't believe she's not going to come running around a corner at any second. She was rescued by my dad when she was about 5 weeks old and we've been together ever since. Thank you for being here to help work through all the emotions that come with this pain.


 
30 Jul 2004
 
10:28:03

I work for an animal hospital where our clients are like a family to us, especially their pets. Its not any easier or less painful to put down someone elses companion and friend. I keep a place in my heart for every soul I set free and shed a tear for all that are left behind.


 
30 Jul 2004
 
03:27:53

Thank you so much for another one of life's "rest stops" that we might partake in the simple and uncomplicated. A respite for making sense (if that is possible) out of our losses and allowing for the hope of healing and restoration. That we also may find that it is possible to embrace suffering and find there is a sweet mystery there...maybe to wake and find ourselves able to care and love more deeply because of the experience. Mary


 
29 Jul 2004
 
08:32:57

hi i only wish id have found this web site earlier when my mum died my dad died first then my mum it was just over a year ago and sometimes i find myself in tears im a lot better now though and i know that they are safe in my angels arms . I know i will see them again but i still miss them both so much they were special because i was their foster daughter they were extra special


 
28 Jul 2004
 
10:04:17

I'm so glad that I have found this site. I lost my baby sister/best friend 3/7/04. I feel that my life is so empty and my selfworth is gone. I just want to die so that I can go to heaven to be with her. I know that I cant I have to stay hear so that I can watch over her 9 yr old daughter and my 19 yr old daughter as well. But the pain that I feel every min. of the day is not going away. The nights that I do sleep seem to get longer and longer. I don't seem to be able to function any more with her. I was Rita's caretaker for so long it was a feeling of being worthwhile. I pray and cry for her to come back home all day long. I just want to see and hear her again in my life. Why was she taken awy from me? I'll never know. I'm in the process for losing my job and everything that I have because I can't focus on anything excpet finding away to getting her back or being with her.


 
27 Jul 2004
 
06:02:13

My name is Charles and my wife died on April 2nd of this year and I need help dealing with her death.She was my life,my soulmate, and best friend.A comment was made to me from a friend:Life does not last foreever but love last for enturnity.I know that when the time comes I will see my beloved one again.


 
20 Jul 2004
 
15:13:06

Your first page, the music, your words and the picture really touched me. It's is a beautiful tribute to your parents and if they can see you I'm sure they're touched too. I lost my grandmother two years ago and I have tried not to grieve but be happy because I know she is in a better place but your home page brought tears streaming down my face. Thank-you, I needed that. God bless.


 
20 Jul 2004
 
03:25:05

Thanks for the useful site. Keep up the good work. God bless you and keep you. -John-


 
18 Jul 2004
 
00:39:39

I lost an important friend almost a year ago coming this September shortly after he was diagnosed with kidney failure. Since he was a part of me and like family I still grieve for him. I am afraid of losing more people as I love and attach so deeply. My education as a gerontologist seems to put me even closer to the ever present nature of loss. Jennifer


 
17 Jul 2004
 
12:00:53

I love your website, i think it is a great thing to have for people to look at. After reading Rainbow Bridge it made me feel a little better about my kittin who past away very quikly after an accident. The poem also helped my aunt who had to put her boxer down due to cancer. thanks for such a great site. Caylie L


 
09 Jul 2004
 
07:37:30

the picture when you're on the home page is beautiful


 
09 Jul 2004
 
06:40:29

I wrote in this web site 9 days ago about putting my Bay-Bay to sleep it broke my heart he was a pug reading all the stories about everyone makes it a little easier it's 10 days now I still miss him so much and cry every night what helps me get by is the little things I do for him still I took a coffee mug and put his picture on it with his name I bought a big picture frame and put all his pictures in it so I can see him still everyday it really does help for a while I bought a stone from the cemetery put it in my yard that way he will alway be there with me everyone said he was just a dog but he wasn't to me it hurts so bad still


 
08 Jul 2004
 
19:39:03

Thanks for a great site. I can only hope the void in my heart begins to fill with happy memories soon. David S.


 
08 Jul 2004
 
07:47:50

I love your webpage. I have a business and would like to eventually list your site. WWW.PAWSWITHWINGS.COM. Please let me hear what you think about this. Thank you and God bless....Donna


05 Jul 2004
 
16:46:54

I had to face the impossible to make decision that the love of my life, my soul mate and best friend Pumpkin had to be euthanized to end her pain and suffering. I held her past her final breath and can find no end to my pain- Intellectualy I have counseled people about the loss of a pet and the need to grieve...now that I am in this situation I find it unbearable. She was abused and we established case law with her case, she was my maid of honor at my wedding and now her work is done and she is out of pain but I am in agony- when does it get better??!!


 
04 Jul 2004
 
15:48:02

Your website was listed in Raymond Moody Jr.'s book Life After Loss. My only child passed away on May 11th, 2004 at the age of 19. He had only been home from college for 6 days. I have been a single parent since he was 8 months old. I am totally lost...not just as to how to go on, but why should I go on. I keep telling myself there has to be a purpose for this tragedy and for my future. Thanks for the opportunity to express my grief. I will explore your site for comfort and hopefully some answers. Colleen


 
01 Jul 2004
 
11:30:03

I have came upon your web site screaching about grief we had to put my Bay Bay to sleep he is a Pug he was 11 years old he couldn't walk anymore he had bad hips and back I hurt so bad never thought I would feel this bad it's been 2 days and I can't stop crying I miss him so much it's hard to walk through the door knowing he won't be there at the door waitting for me to come home I'll always remember the joy and walks we had traczenski@zoominternet.net


 
30 Jun 2004
 
10:23:00

grief over my mother dead still after 23 years old. drew


 
23 Jun 2004
 
07:17:14

I lost my niece last Sunday she was just five years old she had suffered all her life and i took care of her most of the time. when she died she died in my arms how do i get through with my life


 
17 Jun 2004
 
11:08:59

I stumbled upon your website and found it so so comforting. God Bless you for this tremendous effort you've put into action.Bruce


 
13 Jun 2004
 
20:05:18

Wonderful and inspirational.


 
13 Jun 2004
 
18:15:10

6/13/04 Yesterday was one of the most difficult days in my life. I had to make a decision to keep my beloved dog Peppy for a while longer or end her suffering. When the decision can I could not bear to go to the vet with her but sent my husband instead. It just hurt too much to say good bye. I've beening crying since yesterday-however I have found some comfort reading oterhs stories about theri loved ones. I look forward tot he day I will see Peppy at the "pearly gates" waiting to show me the way. I miss her greatly and only regret I could not get the courage to be the last one she saw before she died.


 
 
12 Jun 2004
 
13:11:06

I lost my rabbit yesterday. I feel so alone and empty. I had her (Cutie) for ten years and now it's so unreal not to have her here. I feel so much better talking about it. Thank you. -Margaret


 
 
09 Jun 2004
 
06:10:11

We had to put our family dog Roxy to sleep today. She was a German Shepherd and was 12 years old. I am feeling very sad and empty. I didn't want to have to make this decision but now she is no longer in pain anymore. My mom and I will miss her terribly. Thank you for this site, it gave me the courage to be there with her in the end. Genevieve.


 
 
05 Jun 2004
 
19:21:36

I lost my Brother Jimmy on December 12th 2003 and find it harder now to deal with as i miss him so much. I think of him everyday and wish he was here with me still. thank god for my wife and sons, they give me strength to carry on.......death is so hard to deal with but somehow we carry on and become happy again.i love you all if you want to talk e-mail me at donblight@hotmail.com


 
 
04 Jun 2004
 
16:52:18

I had to put my dog George to sleep 10 days ago because of uncontrollable seizures. He was 8. My best friend is gone and not even my husband or children can fill the emptiness I feel. I feel more pain now about George than I did when I lost my dad suddenly. My house is so quiet now and no tail-wagging friend to greet me when I get home from work. I am devastated and cry all the time.I cannot seem to feel any peace about letting him go peacefully. Why?


 
 
31 May 2004
 
16:11:01

My cat Lucy died couple hours ago. She died suddenly, nobody expected that. She was a beatiful black girl, she was six years old. From the begining she had a hard start, she was born without eyelids, and droped of by a shelter as a 4 weeks old kitten. She spend there 9 months,nobody wanted her because of her eyes. I adopted her, and I have to say I couldn't have made a better choice. She was my girl and I'll never forget her. She will be missed.


 
 
31 May 2004
 
10:28:44

My heart is broken.My 12 yr. old beagle and best buddy next to my wife had recently become very sick.Wehad been giving him insulin shots twice a day.After 3 days of not eating we took him to a emergency vet at midnight 5-30-04.The vet came out with the bad news.I did not want him to suffer anylonger.We spent our last hour with him and let him sniff around outside the clinic and took some last pictures.Finally I had to hand my best friend to a complete stranger and say goodbye for the very last time.We had him since he was a little puppy.I have often thought about the day this would happen and been scared.I did not realize how much it would hurt.I just love that little guy SO MUCH and miss him terribly.He was wagging his tail alittle when we spent our last hour with him.But the look in my buddy's eyes told me he felt so bad.There was nothing else we could do for him.I would have spent my last penny to make him better.I hope he forgives me from heaven and understands I did not want him in pain anymore.And wanted what was best for him.(oh man this hurts so much.)Thankyou for this web site capebob19@earthlink.net Life must go on.


 
 
26 May 2004
 
19:38:31

Your site was recommended by some dear friends. My baby Chihuahua passed away last nite on his first birthday. He was ran over in my driveway by a truck. I'm grieving his loss, it is so heart wrenching without him. Susan V.


 
 
25 May 2004
 
18:03:23

I am coming up on a year on the 27th of May of my Dad's death from Lymphoma.He suffered with this for 5 1/2 years. He was my BEST FRIEND. We talked about everything. Nothing was too personal. He gave to everyone until the day of his death. This was 3 days after my mother-in-law died in a coma because of 2 strokes. I feel as if its only been yesterday. The greif is overwhelming. Sometimes debilitating. Everything that I have managed to do (go to school)raise my kids 13(autistic), and 16 (ADHD) I do as a commitment to my dad. More later.Right now I try to pretend that he's still alive. Victoria in Tempe


 
 
21 May 2004
 
08:07:44

my mom died like one month ago i really miss her she was my best friend i could talk to her about anything but one day ill be with her


 
 
02 May 2004
 
18:40:29

My Mother and I just lost our 9 year old Lhasa Apso, Molly. Since I am an only child and never married, Molly was my child and my Mother's grandchild. We had an expression "If Molly couldn't go we didn't go". I didn't know how we could go on, but after reading your "Preparing for and Mourning the Loss of your Pet" I feel so much better. She was the love of my life. My Mother is 89 years old and reads her Bible every day. Molly would sit next to Mother on the sofa as she read her Bible. This is not the first pet that we have lost, but Molly was so very special as she was given to us one year before my Father died in 1996. A week after my Father's death I had to return to work, but I knew that Mother would be OK becuase she had Molly. Now I still have to go to work, but Mother will not have Molly anymore. That sweet, wonderful face will not be there to greet me when I get home or climb in bed with me when there is a thunderstorm. I know that life must and will go on, but now there is a void in my life and I don't know how to fill it.


 
 
28 Apr 2004
 
18:36:54

this is a good site i lost my cat tonite on the day of april.28/04


 
 
26 Apr 2004
 
19:04:32

Ms. Tousley, I would like to thank you very much for putting this site on the internet. Having a late husband myself, I have found it very difficult to get through the Grief that it has brought. I am currently going into the medical field and am having trouble with this part of my life. One of the classes, that I am required to take in school, is psyche. I am currently writing a research paper on grief and am finding a lot of interesting information on your site. Thank You once again for this site. Mary Lawrence


 
 
22 Apr 2004
 
10:25:34

Wednesday April 21 I had to put my beloved Caesar to sleep. He was suffering from congential heart failure and had a stroke. I was with him when he went to sleep forever and I know he is now happy and running free suffering no more. I shall miss my baby puppy for along time to come. But I am thankful for the 14 years we had together. Deborah


 
 
21 Apr 2004
 
17:27:39

Last night my sweet cockatiel, Mr. Birdie died in my arms. I had him for 10 years of joy! We have no idea how old he really was, for he was given to me by a friend. I was his mommy and loved him so very much. He developed a bad respiratory infection in Dec. 2003 and was misdiagnosed after $500.00 worth of test-how does that happen? I cried and cried thinking he was going to die from some unknown cause. After 2 months of suffering, we took him to the emergency vet. hospital that just happened to have an Avian vet on duty. He was diagnosed with a fungal or bacterial lung infection and was given simple antibiodics. He got over the infection, only to find out that he had a liver problem. His liver enzymes were quadruple the normal level! What hell we went through with more anitbiodics and hand feedings, more tests and trips to the vet. Thanks God that we found a vet who deeply cares about you and your animal. She didn't charge me on many occasions and has won the trust of transferring all of my precious animal companions to her care. My Birdie lasted until April 20th when he began developing a yeast infection in his digestive tract. That was all he was going to bear. He would not go back into his cage all day, only wanting to be on my hand or shoulder. He looked so sick with his little eyes closed most of the time and his full body weight sitting on me all of the time. At 8:20pm, my husband was giving me a break on holding him, when Mr. Birdie started trying to get off of my husband and kept looking toward me, so I gathered him onto my shoulder to sit. After 10 minutes, I looked over at him only to see his respirations go extremely rapid, he stood up and spread his wings as if to fly and stretched his head up with his eyes wide open as if he was looking up at something. I knew he was trying to fly away with his angel birdie, so my husband gently removed him from my shoulder and put him in my arms where he spread his wings once more and passed to the next life. What an extreme honor for him to want to be with his mama for his rebirth. I cried and held him for a long time. My husband and I had our private funeral for Mr. Birdie and planted lilly's and daisy's around his grave in our backyard, where he can enjoy the warmth of the sun. I love you so much my Birdie and miss you with all of my heart! Today we took Mr. Birdies cage and anything we could to the Suncoast Seabird Sanctuary as a donation in honor of Mr. Birdie! Thank you for allowing me to express my love and grief for my precious little Birdie.


 
 
18 Apr 2004
 
14:28:37

I had to have my 13 year old Springer Spaniel, Jessie, put to sleep Feb. 7th. It broke my heart, but then my brother-in-law died from cancer on March 8 and the grief has been difficult. Two days after his funeral, my sister(his wife of 24 years) died of unknown causes. The grief has been overwhelming to my other 4 siblings and me. I've been trying to handle this on my own, but not doing too well. Thank you for this website...it's helping. Dee


 
 
11 Apr 2004
 
18:08:12

Fur Fur ran away but came back.........................im glad........i love fur so much....... she was my birthday present that my mom got me....,I know that god made her come back. sharon wood


 
 
11 Apr 2004
 
15:07:02

This site is wonderful. I am a university student researching grief for a paper. I had my Labrador retriever euthanized due to an inherited spinal disease that basically was paralyzing her hind quarters in Dec. 2001. She was 14 years old and the best friend I ever had. She saw me through the loss of my aunts, mother, uncle and cousin-in-law over the span of her lifetime. She was my soul and lifeline through the family losses. Her loss was devastating for me. I brought her home to be buried in her favorite spot. To this day, I mourn Jessie's loss. I have a new Lab, Murphy, who is trying his best to replace that special spot in my heart I had for Jessie. He seems to know my feelings. He lays by Jessie's grave everyday as if she is giving him lessons in how to take care of me. I will always remember Jessie, my grief at losing her has softened but memory of her will never pass. Thank you, Marty, for this great place. Barbara Utley


 
 
03 Apr 2004
 
13:51:22

MY COCKER BEAGLE MIX NAMED KASHMIR LEFT MY LIFE LESS THAN 2 WEEKS AGO AT THE AGE OF 13. SHE WAS SUFFERING AND I NEEDED TO STOP IT.SHE WAS SUCH A TROUPER AND I LEARNED SO MUCH FROM HER ABOUT COURAGE AND JUST DOING WHAT EVER IS IN FRONT OF YOU WITH A BIG SMILE ON YOUR FACE.THE LOSS IS DEVASTATING.I MISS HER SO MUCH. SHE WAS THE VERY EMBODIMENT OF HAPPINESS.


 
 
27 Mar 2004
 
14:24:21

This website really helped my think of what to do for my pets;s fueral. It really inspeired me.


 
23 Mar 2004
 
17:56:50

His name was Marty too...born 11/5/67 taken suddenly in an auto accident on 3/15/04....how will I ever go on? Thank you for this site...I am looking so hard to find someone, anyone that understands... muffin1367@yahoo.com


 
 
20 Mar 2004
 
23:00:03

I am writing about grief in an educational training program and visited this site. Although I was researching, I found that something else happened. You see my husband passed away on August 3rd 2003 after a long illness. He was only 58 years of age. He chose to be at home and I provided the care required until he passed away in my arms. I thought I was managing really well and for the most part I am. It was only today that I realised that I have been trying to cover my grief with work. Not a good solution. I am now going to face my grief and ensure that I continue to live....as he so desperately wanted me to do. THANK YOU


 
 
13 Mar 2004
 
12:23:13

This website was GREAT!It made me feel so calm and relaxed. Just listening to the lovely music at the beginning made me want to see what else you could do. By all means, you did an execellent job. Great way to modivate people, espically ME!!!


 
 
11 Mar 2004
 
19:42:05

Tonight I am having a tough time. I thought I was over the grief of having a mom who had alzheimers. But now that she has died, I find a new grief. A grief for the years missed, a grief for what was before. Also a good friend was in a very severe card accident one week after I lost my mom. She is blind and will need recovery for several months. Now two weeks later, My daugher has just announced her engagement and I find that I cannot cope with the simpliest concern. I think I was fine until I had to deal with this which should be so joyess and I can't quite deal with. I am now crying a lot which I never do. I just feel like running away.


 
 
11 Mar 2004
 
17:15:43

I lost the love of my life, my best friend...My Mother on February 22, 2004. The connection we have with our mothers is stronger than any other connection we have with anyone else. My heart is broken and I hope time will heal. She was the strongest person I have ever met. She fought lung cancer for 2 long years. I love you Mom...I am thankful you are no longer in pain but my heart aches for you!!


 
 
08 Mar 2004
 
10:37:37

I lost my dog that I have for 12 years. She lived with me for 8 of those years in Australia, and when I came to the States to be married, of course she came too. She is the best friend I ever had. Last week she got sick, and her vital organs started to stop, so I had to get her put to sleep. I dont know how I can deal with this, Im totally heartbroken.. My poor little best friend Bessie, I love you B..... Mummy


 
 
07 Mar 2004
 
17:55:44

On Valentine's Day 2004, I lost my precious Mother, I miss her so much and I am having a hard time coping with it all. She was the one person in my life that fully understood me and believed in me no matter what. She was my Best Friend and I could tell her anything. You was my Rock.....God do I miss her!!!! I love you Mom, Deb


 
 
05 Mar 2004
 
22:30:33

Such a wonderful and heart touching web site Thank you. Maureen


 
 
 
02 Mar 2004
 
16:08:50

AFTER 42 YRS OF HAVING MY HUSBAND, BEST FRIEND, LOVER AND THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE PASS I FEEL SO LOST..SO LONELY..SO HEARTBROKEN THAT I FEEL THIS WILL ALWAYS BE. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I ALWAYS WILL. THE BEAUTIFUL FAMILY WE NUTURED TOGETHER ARE TRYING SO HARD TO BE HELPFUL BUT THE LOSS I FEEL IS TOO GREAT. I LOVE THEM AND KNOW THAT THEY ARE HURTING ALSO. I TALK TO MY HUSBAND EVERY DAY AND MISS HIM EVERY SECOND. HE HAD CANCER SINCE NOV 2000 AND JUST BEFORE CHRISTMAS LAST YEAR WAS TOLD HE WAS IN REMISSION (STAGE 3 LUNG CANCER). IT WAS THE FIRST HOLIDAY IN THE 3 YRS THAT WE FELT SUCH HAPPINESS AND THEN ON JAN 25 WE FOUND OUT THAT THE CANCER HAD SPREAD TO HIS BRAIN AND HE PASSED 20 DAYS LATER ON THE 13TH OF FEB. I HURT SO BAD THAT I REALLY DON'T CARE IF I DIE MYSELF BECAUSE I KNOW THEN THAT I WILL BE WITH HIM. MY EMOTIONS ARE ON A ROLLER COASTER. PLZ IS THERE ANYONE WHO CAN HELP ME? MBK


 
 
01 Mar 2004
 
13:55:28

I have had to do the hardest thing in life at a young age. I am a 18 year old female. That just got out of high school and lost my son after careing him for almost 10 months. I have no place to live and my family's homes are to full for me to stay there. my two sisters have familys and I have lost mine. I don't know what I am to do now but go on with my life. The doc. said I could have a healthy baby but for so reason I lost my first. I hope that some day I well be able to move on and have 2 more but right now I don't know how to get over losing this one. Gabriel Xavier Davis Dec.5 of 2003 He was my angle that helped me grow up to be a better person then what I was. I wish I could of thanked him for all he did for me before he went. Shelley Gabriel's mom


 
 
27 Feb 2004
 
06:44:47

Yesterday my husband and I had to do one of the hardest things ever. We had to have our schnauzer of 14 years put to sleep. Gretchen had developed congestive heart failure around 1 year ago. She was my Valentine's gift from my husband. Words cannot describe the empty feeling in our hearts. Gretchen was the first thing to greet you in the morning and the last thing that snuggle with you at night. Life is like a rose starting from a bud to full bloom and shortly after petals begin to fall and yesterday we lost a very special petal. Chuck and Anita Frazier


 
 
26 Feb 2004
 
16:11:29

For Mamma: Lucille Nellie Rucker 6-17-1924~~~~~2-10-2004 Mamma you gave me alot of good years you gave me life love laughter and even some tears When god made your mold in 1924 he messed up he should have made a million more And as you were laid to rest on this day of love I can hear you humming with the angels above From dusk till dawn i invision you & daddy in your chairs ubder the tree of heavens lawn From pot roast to english toffee I will allways cherish the breaks with a short cup of coffee The miles are lonely this is true But at the same time it is filled with beautiful memories of you Noone can take those moments away your cute little comments are with me each and every day Now you are in heaven and daddy is taking care of you I know you are making his lunch it is allmost eleven And when you are through you will lay down to rest Noone could have a better mamma than you you are the best. I love you mamma~~~~~~~ Sue


 
 
23 Feb 2004
 
18:42:13

MARTY, TODAY WE LOST OUR PUPPY MICHEAL TO PARVO. IT HAPPENED SUDDENLY. WE HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO PUT HIM DOWN DUE TO THE AMOUNT WANTED TO HELP HIM. HE WAS A SWEET, LOVING PUP. HE WAS FOUR MONTHS OLD. I AS THE MOM IN THE HOUSE I BECAME EXTEMELY CLOSE TO HIM. MY CHILDREN 8 AND 3 BECAME CLOSE BUT DONT UNDERSTAND DEATH LIKE I DO. I'M HURTING ALOT AND FEEL GUILTY THAT I WASNT ABLE TO PAY TO SAVE HIM. THE KIDS ARE ALREADY ASKING FOR ANOTHER PET. I SAID NO. I FEEL THAT IF I GET ANOTHER SO QUICKLY THAT IT WOULD BE DISRESPECTFUL TO MICHEAL. THAT, AND I WANT TO GIVE THE KIDS TIME ENOUGH THAT THEY MAY FEEL HIS ABSENCE AND GRIEVE. I HOPE THAT IM DOING THE RIGHT THING.ONE BIG LIFE LESSON FOR THE KIDS. THANK YOU FOR LISTENING. BOBBIE HAGENBAUGH


 
 
23 Feb 2004
 
06:50:46

Hello I lost my Lhasa Apsos (Sparky) to kidney, and liver seckness on 02-22-04 he will be surelt missed. He was always there no matter what the problem, he had a comforting kiss and gentle nugge for us at all times. He will be surely missed. Gil Wels


 
 
23 Feb 2004
 
01:32:00

I took my best friend Phoebe into the vet on Friday, and today, the vet called to inform me of her passing. She has suffered through, kidney failure and she figured she didnt want to suffer anymore. i love and miss Phoebe, so much!!! This was so unexpected for me. I thought for sure the vet that i had so much faith in for 9 and half years, was sure to get her well. I miss her so very, very much. I have to call him this morning to let him know what to do with her. I have no clue, or even what my options are. I just wish that she was here with me. i cant beleive this is happening!!!


 
11 Feb 2004
 
09:13:05

Our beloved Golden Retriever, Luke, was euthanized on August 1, 2003. He let us know it was time; he no longer wanted to eat or drink; no longer wanted to play; he struggled to get up. The veterinary specialist said he most likely had cancer throughout his body, originally starting in his liver. None of this made his leaving us any easier but we did not want him to suffer. We spent his last 3 days holding him, loving him, talking to him. To this day, it does not take much to make us cry over losing him.


 
 
11 Feb 2004
 
07:33:19

Again, your website is fantastic, can't falter you there. My grandmother died last September, September 4, and I still cry about it a lot. I was really close to her, and I havent talked to my mother since then, because she didnt even think to ask if I wanted to come and see her before she died. I know 5 months is a long time not to speak to someone, but I really havent forgiven her yet. If anyone has any advice, please tell.


 
 
09 Feb 2004
 
14:25:09

Thank you for your beautiful and caring website. Your poetry section helped me to grieve for my beloved son whom I lost on New Year's Day, 2004 just before sunrise. How wonderful that you include our loving pets, such as our Petey, who are waiting for us at Rainbow Bridge. Thank you.


 
 
30 Jan 2004
 
12:40:23

Thank you so much for this site. it has helped a great deal with the passing of my beloved brother-in-law. It has also helped me to deal with the grief that my husband is feeling at the loss of his brother. Thank you and God Bless. Erica Colston


 
 
30 Jan 2004
 
10:15:44

Hi Marty, We always like sharing your comments in our Day Brightener newsletter. You have helped a lot of people who have lost beloved animal companions over the years. This topic that you're an expert in and that your website is featuring is of special interest to us. We have a story about the Rainbow Bridge in our new book GOD’S MESSENGERS: What Animals Teach Us about the Divine. The story titled “Messengers from Heaven” was written by Judy who is from Missoula, Montana. It is about Judy’s therapy dog Molly who passes away and Judy gets confirmation that there really is a Rainbow Bridge and she will meet Molly again in heaven. Judy’s story was featured in the daily newspaper in Missoula and has done much to comfort those who have lost beloved animal companions. Your guestbook readers may want to visit us at www.angelanimals.net for more details about our book GOD’S MESSENGERS and why we think sharing stories about the human/animal spiritual bond is so important. Thanks.


 
 
25 Jan 2004
 
21:24:26

Thank you for your Web site. I lost my wonderful companion Shaquille. He was such a great dog. Full of love, I know he is in heaven with all his friends and he isn't in pain. I am trying to deal with the loss and pain I feel. I will always love my little pupper.


 
 
25 Jan 2004
 
20:03:57

I lost a son to suicide 3 months ago and I thought check the internet on this subject


 
 
25 Jan 2004
 
17:43:26

I am writing today.. as it has only been two days since I had to put my beloved "Boogieman" to sleep. He was the greatest cat you could ever want.. his fir was like velvet! Any one that met the "Boogieman" always remembered his beautiful coat of fir! He was just georgous! Along with is unbelievable love and caring personality and was so happy to see me every time I walked through the door, with cries of happiness to see me! Often he would get up on the dinning room table and sit near the edge waiting for me to remove my coat so he could give me hug. He was suddenly not eating and laying around in a very depressed state and was diagnosed with Lymphomia just last Wednesday, over the few days, each day it got more and more difficult to see him struggle. It was a very tough decision to make and I still struggle with it! I have many different emotions and feelings of anger, sadness, why my cat?, confusion, emptiness, and loneliness. Today I just didn't want to be bothered.. by anyone I just wanted to sit in and feel what I was feeling, but it made me feel worse.. it is part of the process! I want my "Boogieman" to be resting,but I really want him to be crying at the door and wanting to hug me from the table ,take a drink from the sink and snuggle under the covers with me at bed time. The silence hurts my head! Thank you for letting me share! Any words of advice are welcome at dilgy1266@optonline.net! Your Mommy Loves you Boogsie!


 
 
20 Jan 2004
 
14:52:10

HI. Today is January 20...it would have been my mother's 59th birthday. I didn't realize when they told us in July that she had terminal lung cancer that it would be only 5 weeks until her death. My heart aches and I long to hug her and tell her one more time how much I love her. I wish that today I could send her roses for her birthday, but I can't. Thanks for letting me go on about it here.


 
 
18 Jan 2004
 
04:59:33

i lost my sister 22 years ago in may and is still hard for me all these years later, as well as my brother i lost him 8 years ago in may also but one good thing has come to me i ment up with my sisters son she left behind have not seen him in 22 years long story.


 
 
16 Jan 2004
 
05:40:56

Hi, I'm male 30 yrs old and have just been reading some of the touching comments on this site, living on the Gold Coast of Australia and similarly living with grief , 20 months ago I lost my Mum to a three year battle with breast cancer , and am still finding it hard , really hard sometimes. If its any help to any special people out there , the time does make it easier somewhat ,,,,, but you never stop missing them ,,, just don't do what I do and drink to make it better ..... that does NOT help Murray red_300zx@hotmail.com


 
 
15 Jan 2004
 
20:19:44

I lost my dearest companion for the past 12 years, my cat Kiki. He helped me get through some excruciating lonely years and breakups, and now that I'm very happy and about to be married, I guess his work is done here. He left us for 2 days (unusual) and then was killed in the road in front of our house on his way home. I hope none of you have to experience picking up a frozen dead pet off the road. My heart is broken and I miss him so. I had been saying I just wanted to know he wasn't suffering, and he seemed to have died instantly. I got my wish. Words cannot describe how much his daily love and affection meant to me.


 
 
13 Jan 2004
 
12:34:56

Thank you for this site. I have no children, so my dogs are my kids. We lost our precious baby Morgan in a tragic second. I appreciate this page and its devotion to dealing with the loss of a pet, who many times is as close a member of the family as anyone. For Morgan, thanks for all the wonderful memories you have left me.


 
 
12 Jan 2004
 
21:52:07

What a valuable website and so informative. Beautifully designed. Thank for sharing such rich rescources! This will help me with teaching and counsellingin both human and pet bereavement. My students will be well informed. Our website is www.spiritualdirections.com


 
 
10 Jan 2004
 
02:06:23

still cant get over the fact that my mum passed away 6 years on the 21 dec 2003 my dad passed away ifound it really hard when my mum had gone and im really not coping to well knowing that i will never see my dad again only in my heart thank you your wed site it has help me alot


 
 
05 Jan 2004
 
05:59:37

My rat recently passed to the Rainbow bridge. I was very close to her and I wanted to see her grow to be a mature rat. I was so mad at myself for letting her die. I have to also add that if you make a bond, make it one that will last, It is normal and human to cry tears of joy, sorrow or any other emotion, dont hold it in, let it out for the world to see Morgan Moone www.rodeoprincess567@cs.com


 
 
12 Dec 2003
 
18:23:44

Hi my name is Sylvia/ I lost my daughter Dec 19.1995 she was 17. I would like to thank you for this website I just found. I also in the past two years have lost a nephew and niece and a very special friend . My friend at work also lost her son 2wks ago at the same sit that my daughter had her accident .


 
 
04 Dec 2003
 
12:04:34

I am searching for a way to talk to my Goddaughter who is also my niece. She lost her 9 year old son in a ATV accident two weeks ago. She is griefing so much that she is talking about joining her son. She has two other children who need her so hopefully by reading your comments I can find a way to reach her. Thanks, Eva


 
 
04 Dec 2003
 
10:28:39

Hi, My name is Christine Duarte, I am the mother of two wonderful twin daughters. A special gift sent to me from God. They have just turned four years old and are the joy of my life. I feel that I am very blessed to have had a chance for my older brother John Jr. and my other family members to have such a wonderful chance to be a part of their life. My brother John, passed away a little over a year ago and this has been the hardest thing that I have ever had to deal with and is still struggling to heal. This year the holidays do not have the same meaning as it did before he was gone. He was the life of the party and was always so caring, loving, ands giving. I hope that he is looking down and knows how much I miss him and how much he is loved even though I didn't always tell him that. I hope that some day that we will meet again.


 
 
04 Dec 2003
 
07:16:20

THERE IS NO HEALING FROM THE LOSS AND GRIEF WHICH I HAVE SUSTAINED. ALL I CAN DO IS TO GO ON LIVING AND PRAYING.


 
 
26 Nov 2003
 
00:52:02

This site has been a godsend for me this year. I have been grieving the loss of two dear friends: One was murdered and the other suffered serious kidney failure. It's so painful to feel the suffering but there is nothing else to do but FEEL. This site is lovely and helped me grieve tonight. Love Jennifer


 
 
25 Nov 2003
 
15:39:05

A very comforting webite. Excellent.


 
 
20 Nov 2003
 
13:18:51

One month ago today, I lost my fiance unexpectedly. 8 days ago, I miscarried. Yesterday I met with a grief counsellor that is working with a Hospice here in St. Louis. I am glad and thankful to you for spending the time it takes to create this web page. It was a roller coaster of a ride for me looking through all of this (quite bittersweet actually). But that is part of the road back to ... Thank you... I will definitely be visiting again. Shannon


 
 
19 Nov 2003
 
19:21:19

Thank You For This Page. I lost my closest cousion "Terry" a month ago and I have been having a hard time dealing with it. I wish it never had to happen. But Iall I know is he is up in hevean looking down on all his family& friends right now. I'll miss him... But I will not forget him. Kaila Hipps


 
 
18 Nov 2003
 
05:33:17

We have experienced the loss of our fourth dear one in the last two years, on Friday 11/14/03. We are sad beyond words. He was a 10 1/2 year old Rotti named Bose. What a great one too.



 
09 Nov 2003
 
14:34:36

This is a difficult time after being widowed for the second time, moving to new home alone, our anniversary along with the holidays. I feel so unfocused, the least thing leaves me feeling as though I swimming in chaos. I miss the together time, the secret smiles and looks with my friend, lover and soul mate. It seems as though I'll never be whole again or know who I really am. Bonnie


 
 
08 Nov 2003
 
21:21:39

I am looking for ways to help my sister, who lost her husband and my niece and nephew who lost their dad October 26th. He was on a fishing trip in the Gulf of California with 4 other friends but they never returned. The boat was found and 1 body was recovered 1 week later but my sister's husband has not been found. She has come to the realization that he is gone. I wish I could help my 17 year old niece with her pain. I feel so badly for her. What can I do, if anything to help out. This is the first death in our family that I've had to deal with. My sister is a widow at 41. They had a wonderful family life and now my sister is alone with my niece at home. Any ideas? M. Gilbert


 
 
01 Nov 2003
 
05:18:22

Hello - I am still grieving over the loss of my Mom almost 2 years ago, 12/18/2001. I am so thankful to have found this website, it's the best one yet! I was wondering though if grief seems worse the second year then the first? Does anyone know? Although I am not stuck in the "black hole" that I was for the first six months after Mom's death, I find myself being terribly lonely, even though I have many friends and a warm, loving family. There is a huge hole in my heart, that I don't think will ever be repaired. I could care less about the holidays, they mean nothing to me. Any thoughts or guidance would be greatly appreciated. Thanks so much for a really wonderful website. DLC


 
 
29 Oct 2003
 
18:22:30

I lost my dad 1 1/2 years ago. He was only 58. He had lung cancer. I miss him more and more as time passes. I'm so glad I found your website. Sincerely, Daddy's cowgirl


 
 
27 Oct 2003
 
10:09:13

Thank you so much for compiling such compassionate wisdom. TA


 
 
27 Oct 2003
 
08:08:17

I've had several significant losses in my life: sexual abuse at age 7, death of father at age 14, contemplating suicide at age 16, 1 miscarriage, death of 3 important pets, my mother's illness (cancer 1 yr.) and death 18 mons. ago. I've been in therapy now for 4 yrs. and have studied Thanatology and just finished my masters in conselling in Mexico where I live...but I still feel that I am grieving...even though I AM better than how I used to be. I would like to be in the discussion groups and learn more to help myself and consequently to be more able to help accompany others in their losses.


 
 
21 Oct 2003
 
12:18:23

Thanks again. I signed this guest book because of the loss of a Bulldog on the 17th July, 02, but now, I have just lost my mother. The died of food poisoning on 19th of this month in a hospital. Beforehand, she was terrified of going in becuase of all of the stories of MRSA, and that one of her friends had recently passed away from 'flu in the same hospital. Before she entered the hospital, the chlostridium was'nt too bad, and the only accepted her to analyse her. While she was there, she fell down stairs and broke some of the bones in her foot. Strong painkillers were given which knocked her out for a few days. The food poisoning eventually took hold, unfortunately, and she died at 06:07. I'm not sure how peaceful the death was, as she was conscious as she passed on, but the most painful thing is that I don't know if she acknowledged if I was there. Later on, I found out that many of the things she had gone into the hospital with had dissapeared, including glasses, books, and an Amber necklace I had given her as a get well present a few weeks before she died. I was heartbroken, and still am, but mostly I feel much anger at the hospital staff, who didn't seem to give a shit what happened to my mother or her belongings. This is the first time I have been out of bed since the death, and I'm still crying as I write this. Thank you so much for this helpful site.